So...it's absolutely 0520...I don't really think that I've slept, although maybe I have. TheBoy has been Sick ever since the u2 concert on Sunday. I think I'm getting sick now. That's really here, nor there. Later today, my family will gather in Upstate NY to celebrate my Grandma's 80th birthday...tomorrow they will do the same for my Grandpa...I'm not there...neither is TheBoy...I'm sad...I was looking forward to going. But with me getting sick, and TheBoy not fully recovered, we decided it was better for us to stay here, and contain our germs...our cousin is 7 months pregnant, and well...Gram &Pa are 80...
A lot of things have been happening here in the last little bit...well, since we got into this living situation really...But things are really coming to a head now. TheBoy and I have to GET OUT...as quickly as humanly possible. Therefore, I'm holding myself accountable for my actions {and former in-actions} and as painful {literally} as it may be...I'm gonna bust my butt...find a job, and do everything in my power to help us get out of this situation.
I've started to apply for jobs...mainly at photo studio's...and I'm hoping to land something here in the next couple weeks. I have my first appointment with my new Doctor in Boston on Friday. TheBoy and I are planning a {less stressful} trip to NY in just under 2 weeks...I can't wait...I miss my mom, and can't wait to get to spend almost a week with her.
so...yeah...that's where we stand here in 'Lil Rhody right now...fall is here with a vengeance, and I'm more determined then ever.
Let Go, Let God..."If we live by the Spirit, let us also be guided by the Spirit."--Galatians 5:25
no...really guess...cause the pictures won't be up till tomorrow...gotta love the suspense huh??
j/k...TheBoy and I went to the u2 concert up at Gillette stadium. it was by far the most amazing thing I've ever seen.
But I'm sure you can see that it's well 2am...and neither of us are going on a lot of sleep {TheBoy...is on WAYYYYYYYY less sleep then me, but anyway....we're tired...so we're going to bed...that being said...this post will be "fixed"with lots 'o' pretty pictures tomorrow, I promise ye that.
so there ye be. up to date in my impression of Irish Gaelic....anyway....
coming from me...Éimí...I'm telling you that once I'm done running errands tomorrow, I'll have some {ok as many as my happy little BB Curve could hold} pictures to bore, or fascinate you with :-)....don't let the suspense get to you too much
It's been such a long week. I've been sick most of it. Totally discovered the down side of having all of my doctors being in Boston. Thankfully, it seems that it was just a really drawn out stomach bug, and I'm doing better now...I'm still tried, but what else is new?
TheBoy has had a long hard week too. The ANG has kept him bangin this week, but tomorrow {today?} is going to be the amazing end to this long shitty week. What's going to make it amazing you ask?? I'm glad you asked!! We're going to u2 tomorrow!!!! I'm the most excited kid on the face of the planet!!! I've never been before. I think it's TheBoy's, like, 8th or 9th u2 concert....he's mildly obsessed...but I'm a u2 virgin...we've been looking forward to this concert for damn near a year...shitty timing, yes...thank you US Air Force...are we gonna let it damper our good time?? HECK NO!!!!!!! It's just a way for us to celebrate the end of TheBoy's 2 weeks of Active Duty.
I wish could take my good camera, but at the same time, I don't cause I don't want to hurt it, lol. So, BB pictures will have to do...anyway...it's late early? and I'm rambling...so, I'm going to bed...I hope...but somehow I think I'm too excited for that...I hope that TheBoy is sleeping well at work...I miss him...I hate getting used to him being home, just to have him go back to work...it just makes me miss him that much more...and then I have to get used to being at home by myself {with my inlaws}....
I can't wait to get our own house/apartment/space other then here...
1. The illness{s} I live with is: Fibromyalgia, & Migraines
2. I was diagnosed with it in the year: I was dx with migraines in 98. The fibro was dx in '03.
3. But I had symptoms since: before I can remember...well, yeah, I guess I really have...of the fibro anyway...I have vague memories of being in the hospital as a young child, and going through test after test with no findings...looking back, I guess we know why now...that was almost 22 years ago now
4. The biggest adjustment I’ve had to make is:....everyday is an adjustment...I went from being an athletic, working, happy young women, to being a stay at home wife, who's barely able to get out of bed on a good day...don't get me wrong, I love TheBoy, and would not give up my life for anything, however, I would make some adjustments...
5. Most people assume: I'm perfectly normal, and just lazy as hell
6. The hardest part about mornings are: I'm tired, I'm groggy, I hurt like I can't even explain, and I have to say good bye to TheBoy for the day, Thank you USN *grumble*
7. My favorite medical TV show is: {was} ER
8. A gadget I couldn’t live without is: my computer, and my cell phone...my friends and family live in those things!
9. The hardest part about nights are: that's when I feel the best, yet, I'm alone...either because TheBoy is at work, or asleep, and/or normal people don't stay up all night...I love night time...it's cooler, less humid (if it's summer) and I don't hurt as much
10. Each day I take __ pills & vitamins. (No comments, please) I've lost count
11. Regarding alternative treatments I: Haven't gone there yet...but I think I might soon
12. If I had to choose between an invisible illness or visible I would choose: I'm not really sure in all honestly...I'm just getting used to this...I'm not sure what difference it would make if it was visible, other then people understanding without having to explain 9million times
13. Regarding working and career: trying to get my photography off the ground so that I can call the shots {no pun intended} and make my own hours around how I feel
14. People would be surprised to know: that I'm not really lazy, and I HATE being in bed, or inside, and restricted all the time...I miss being active, I miss hanging out with friends, I miss cooking, I miss being social...I miss my life
15. The hardest thing to accept about my new reality has been: giving up my freedom, and having to ask for help and depend on others so much. It makes me want to cry.
16. Something I never thought I could do with my illness that I did was: make a difference in other peoples lives
17. The commercials about my illness: make me want to cry...they portray it as something so happy, and easy...it's NOT
18. Something I really miss doing since I was diagnosed is: picking up and just GOING. No planning, no worrying.
19. It was really hard to have to give up: my independence.
20. A new hobby I have taken up since my diagnosis is: Photography...I love every minute of it...oh, and blogging
21. If I could have one day of feeling normal again I would: Pick up and just go anywhere TheBoy wanted to, and do anything he wanted to, no worries
22. My illness has taught me: I'm stronger then I think {most of the time}
23. Want to know a secret? One thing people say that gets under my skin is: Don't you get bored?? {DUH???}
24. But I love it when people: Ask me how I'm feeling, and actually care about the answer
25. My favorite motto, scripture, quote that gets me through tough times is: 1 Corinthians 13:4 4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love doesn't care who you are, if you have an II or anything...it's there no matter what
26. When someone is diagnosed I’d like to tell them: It's not the end, it's a new beginning...
27. Something that has surprised me about living with an illness is: I'm actually capable of doing it. I never thought that this was something that I was capable of. I watched my mom do this growing up, and thought "I could never do that." I was wrong
28. The nicest thing someone did for me when I wasn’t feeling well was: Hold me, hug me, love me, and tell me it was going to be ok
29. I’m involved with Invisible Illness Week because: It's good to know you're not alone
30. The fact that you read this list makes me feel: Like I'm not alone :-)
This was written by a Navy Chaplain for the White House Commission at the National Moment of Remembrance. It was written in 2002, a year after that tragic day, but I thought it would be more than appropriate with the eighth anniversary tomorrow...
Almighty God, the past year will be indelibly inscribed in our memories.
We looked with horror on the terrorist attacks of last September 11th.
But we looked with honor on acts of courage by ordinary people
who sacrificed themselves to prevent further death and destruction.
We shed our tears in a common bond of grief for those we loved and lost.
We journeyed through a dark valley, but your light has led us to a place of hope.
You have turned our grief into determination.
We are resolved to do what is good, and right, and just.
Help us to remember what it means to be Americans—
a people endowed with abundant blessings.
Help us to cherish the freedoms we enjoy and inspire us to stand
with courage, united as one Nation in the midst of any adversity.
It comes to my attention that I haven't really ever properly introduced you to my family. Heck, you've never even seen a real picture of me!
Prepare for that to change.
Meet me {Amy} and TheBoy {Nick}. This was taken on our wedding night, 2/28/2009.
{just so you know...I've lost a good 15-20 pounds since then, and my face isn't that chubby anymore} but, being the photographer that I am...I don't have a whole lot of pictures with me in them, since I'm always the one taking them....maybe I'll work on that sometime soon, lol.
Meet our furbabies! Tinkerbell is the Calico on the higher shelf, and Keegan is the Tiger on the lower shelf. Tinks is our Princess, and she's spoiled rotten, and Keegan is our DareDevil who can melt your heart with a tip of his head, or a few kisses on your nose.
So there you have us...That's our little family {for now} and now you'll know who I'm talking about when I mention TheBoy, Princess, or DareDevil :-D
Tomorrow is the 8th anniversary of a day that I know that I will never forget. I will never forget the fact that I had left class early that day with a migraine. I will never forget the fact that when I got back to my room I turned on my TV and saw the first tower on fire. Or that I called my mom in Upstate, NY, and had her turn on her TV. I'll never forget that we watched the same channel...{200 miles away from each other (I was in RI for my sophomore year of JWU)} in horror as the second plane hit. I'll never forget that my roommates cousin was at the Pentagon that day, and we couldn't get a hold of her until late that night. I'll never forget the look on some of my dorm mates faces as they realized they were never going to see family members, friends, people they loved, ever again.
There are alot of other reasons I will never forget. I'm an Air Force Wife. I'm a Fire Fighters Wife. My life with TheBoy revolves around firefighting, and the military...as a matter of fact...as I sit here now, typing this entry....I wonder where TheBoy is...is he back at the station where I last saw him? Or was there really a fire, and is he of somewhere in his turnouts saving someones life, home, or both?
As we all wake up tomorrow on the anniversary of 9/11/2001, let's all take a moment to remember not only the thousands of lives lost on that day, but also, the thousands of lives lost in the 8 years since that day. Let's remember that there are still thousands upon thousands of service members around the world everyday fighting to keep us safe. Let's remember that each one of those service members is someones son or daughter, sister or brother, mother or father, husband or wife. Those of us that the service members leave here while they go out every day and fight got this country...we fight our own battles here at home as well. So, in your travels, tomorrow, or any day really, if you see a service member, or their SO...take a moment, and thank them...cause it's not easy...for any of us.
